JANUARY 2 2011
Hey, so it's such an effort to journal and take the time to write this down perhaps just because it's seems so tedious, but I think over it and I just think it should be written down because my life and situation and feelings change with the seasons and if I don't get down how I am now then I won't remember and it'll be lost forever...
So a lot has happened in this past year. I’ve grown in friendships and become more adventurous, more outgoing, more friendly and more myself and less caring of whether other people approve of who and what I am and how I act. I am being more of myself. I’ve grown in relationships, lost one and solidified another, grown deeply attached to that other and found that I’m in love with him . I’ve taken a ceramics class and discovered it to be my favorite art medium thus far, tied closely to drawing/sketching. I’ve gotten a job and become more outgoing, to can talk to complete strangers more comfortably than ever. I have grown more secure in what I believe of myself in God, although I find at times I‘m still hesitant to trust Him to have the control of my life. Right now in pausing and looking back over this past year I see that through the sour and sweetness my life has been flavored with, It’s easier to see that God really does have control and my life has a destination point that He’s guiding me to. And so it’s easier to let Him have it all.
